THAT'S IT, YOU'RE ALL GROUNDED.

[crysthewolf]

My Mom's been driving me crazy, Dad gets all in a tizzy over Wil because he believes him and Toni when they say act like every disagreement between me and them is my fault and that if I'd just keep my mouth shut everything'd be fine.  I don't understand why so many people in my world seem to get so well that, regardless of whether what they say is MEANT to be hurtful to me, "I'm talking and that's causing her pain, perhaps I should stop talking and stop causing her pain."  Or that when you blame me for other people being mean to me, it sends me into a whirlwind of hurt and darkness that I just don't have control over yet (yes, I will, but it takes time, so back off a minute.) ...and other people, don't have a fucking clue.

Since my family, whether well-meaning or not, don't quite seem to get that, you're all put on notice... you are GROUNDED until after the holidays.  Spend time with each other, have fun in a Crys-free world for a little while, because I need to hole up and be away from you all. 

Brian and Jennifer and the boys are NOT grounded, you are MORE THAN WELCOME TO CONTACT ME TO YOUR HEART'S CONTENT!  (give the boys my cell number if they want it.)  Let me repeat, BRIAN AND JENNIFER AND JAKEB AND JUSTIN, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME ABSOLUTELY ANYTIME, ALWAYS. Cory and Zoey are also NOT grounded, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO CALL ME ABSOLUTELY ANYTIME.

The rest of you are on notice until either the holiday season passes or I feel like I can deal with you again.

Dad, feel free to visit my message board and I'm going to leave it's moderation in Harley's capable hands for the time being.  I'll be back later.  If I don't respond to your emails it's because I'm filtering them to a special folder to check up on later.  If there's an emergency have Brian and Jennifer call me.

Yes, that's right, I'm taking a vacation from all of you.  Sorry, I need a time out.  Sorry it's during the holidays but, y'know, that may very well be better for everyone.

Love,

Crystal

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Re: hope you're proud.

[defixione.livejournal.com]

All that talk of love is very interesting, because I still remember -as though it was yesterday- when I was at the theater with her and Chris, and she got the...what, 7, 8...emails you sent her telling her you hate her and essentially ripping her up one side and down the other. I read the emails, and I can tell you that was nothing but hate-spewing.

What I remember even more vividly, though, is how she broke down crying right there in the middle of the theater.

Now, I read your recent blog entry about how you've worked so hard and you've been so responsible only for liberals to feed off you. They just don't want to take responsibility for themselves, right? They want to say everything was done TO them by someone else.

But from what I remember, that sobbing wreck in the theater was a direct result of your words. You did that, Wil. You and no one else. And that wasn't love, that was hate. Tell yourself it was love all you want, but everyone else can see it for what it is. You're way too self-righteous for your own good.

You need to do some soul-searching and really admit, at least to yourself, what you really feel. Because right now you're too much of a hypocrite.