crysthewolf

I stole the title from a Brian Mclaren book. You should check him out sometime... he's got some interesting things to say.

But that's beside the point. ;)

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To start hiding my thoughts from the world again, just because my brother has decided to use them as an excuse to bully me.

Okay, so that "roommate" thing? It kinda happened a little early. Except... he's the wrong color, and, I think perhaps, the wrong gender.

I was taking out the trash this evening when I was accosted by a very sweet, very SKINNY black cat. I couldn't stand to leave him so I went ahead and took him inside and gave him some food. Stephen was here and he ate a little bit and then came and begged for luvins from both of us and then ate some more and drank a LOT. He's front-declawed and I couldn't stand leaving him outside, so Stephen lent me some money to get a litter-box and some cat food, since I'm going to need both anyway.

Thing is, I really CAN'T keep him. I've already committed to taking Sapphire and I can't really afford two cats, plus I'm fairly certain that he's sick and I can't afford to take care of an ailing kitty. He's got some kind of nodules on some parts of his skin, one of which seems to be scabbed somehow. I haven't seen any fleas but I'm a little concerned that he might have something he'll end up passing on to Sapphire.

I'm going to put out flyers tomorrow, but I'm not sure what else to do. I REALLY don't want to put him back outside, and I know that the humane society is super low on fundage right now. Plus, I think that he could really stand a vet-trip, and I think he may be blind in one eye. Is there anyone who would at least be able to take him to the vet and have him checked out? Or does anyone have any suggestions of someplace I could take him where they'd check him out for free? Does anybody take boarders?

*sigh* I've really got to quit being such a damned bleeding-heart.

(btw, Carrie, YES I AM still taking Sapphire in, hopefully sometime this week. What are you doing on Thursday and on Friday?)

Love,
Crystal

I'm sick of whining. No, seriously. Something's ALWAYS happening, the ceiling is ALWAYS falling on my head, and whether anyone wants to believe it or not, I get a LOT of shit thrown at me. A LOT. Just today I had to get my lights turned back on (had to borrow money for it. I HATE borrowing money), had to fight for the third day in a row between the gas station and my debit card company to get the $100 hold that the gas station mistakenly put on my card taken OFF, and it's STILL not taken care of, AND, to TOP it all off, my brother went off on me again (see earlier post). And, regardless of where I may BE in my life right now (jobless, just had my power shut off [it's back on now, no worries], behind on my bills and broke) and how much of that anyone may THINK it's my own fault and I ought to be FURTHER and if I just tried hard enough I WOULD be? I've done DAMNED good for myself.

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well sheeeut.

http://mycybertuffet.livejournal.com/46235.html

If I wasn't already voting for Obama (or at LEAST against McCain) I am now.

Love,
Crystal

I love playing the "Why you're not a Christian" game. I get it a LOT... primarily because I USED to be a Christian.

The most recent was this one: You're not a Christian because deep down you really feel guitly because of the way that you've lived your life, but you don't understand what Jesus did for you and that his sacrifice covers your sins and you don't have to worry about it.

I could come at the first point first, "You're not a Christian because you feel guilty." Guilty for what? Well, because I've sinned, I suppose. I've had sex outside of marriage, I cuss, I've lied... or, if you want to go down the original sin road, I was born. I suppose that would be fair... except that I don't have any reason to feel guilty for having sex outside of marriage because I don't think that it's wrong. I suppose that you could tell me that I'm lying to myself, and you MIGHT be right, but that's a pretty egotistical claim to make, particularly if you're coming from the "I'm not God" point of view. "I know you better than you do because I'm not you." Hm, well, by that logic, I also know YOU better than YOU do, and you're lying to YOURself.

We could run around in this circle forever. Let's go to the next part.

"You don't understand what Jesus did for you."

I'm a passionate person. I'm dedicated. When I find something that's important to me, I want to know everything about it. I fell in love with Chris and have been going back through his blog and reading old entries JUST to get to know him better. And you really think that I didn't study the God who I believed had granted me eternal life without suffering and was going to keep me warm and safe and loved and happy for all of time and then some... and on TOP of that actually MADE me in the first place??

I get the matter of sacrifice. I've even come up with theories about God being a being made of stuff that would DESTROY us if we had any sin... not because of his own will so much as because of his own ESSENCE. But that if something takes your place, dies for you, you're covered. And I get that Jesus, being a perfect Someone, made a sacrifice that covered EVERYONE. I GET that when I'm hidden in him, I have absolutely NO sin, that God sees me perfectly as he made me to be, and that I live to please him.

I get that. I don't BUY it.

It's a beautiful idea, but the problem that I have with it is that you have to take things that don't hurt anyone, including yourself, and call them "wrong" for no other reason than that everyone does them (ie, being born, again, see "original sin"), and then say that you need saving from them. You have to take things that can be easily corrected, like eating too much or having sex or lying or hurting someone's feelings, and instead of just saying I'm sorry and making reparations to that person, you have to say that that thing is SO BAD that you have to DIE for it.

You see, you have to start the Gospel story with the bad news before you can get to the good news. You have to start with Sin, and that "the wages of sin is death." You lied to your Mom about how late you stayed up watching TV? You stole a candy bar from the grocery store? You don't get to go to bed earlier or without supper, you don't get to take the candy bar back and apologize... you get DEATH.

BUT WAIT, there's an ANSWER!

THAT is why I don't believe it. Not because I don't "understand what Jesus did", but because I think that it's absolutely silly to think that something that dramatic needed to be done in the first place, 'cause I was born, 'cause somebody I don't know and don't have any proof even exists supposedly ate an apple they were told not to eat.

And, last but not least, when you are concerned that someone might have a good argument for you, the easiest way to shut them down is to say "Why are you so defensive? Why are you protesting so much? You MUST have a guilty conscience."

BRRR, wrong again. The answer to that question would be????

I have this jones for truth. Y'see... I"ve seen bullshit, and I've seen the damage it can do. Congratulations, I'd like for you to know the truth... about me, if nothing else.

But, you probably don't care to hear it anyway.

Love,
Crystal

Ill and in Pain, Detainee Dies in U.S. Hands

So, you get human rights if you were born in America, or if you have oil.

Sometimes.

Good to know.

....but the REALLY ridiculous part is that the whole thing is still behind red tape and that every single prison official involved wasn't immediately canned.

The really REALLY ridiculous part, is the people who will read this article and say "Well, he shouldn't have been here illegally."

Kinda makes me glad I haven't heard from my mother in a while.

Love,
Crystal

I may be getting a new roommate.

Her name is Sapphire and she's deaf. If we get her, Chris will have to be the financial backup for if she needs anything (and, as of right now, she will... she needs a good de-worming and a flea treatment, and then spayed in a few weeks.) We haven't made a decision yet, but we're gonna talk more about it.

But isn't she ADORABLE?! =D

I miss having a kitteh. I've never had a deaf kitteh before, but that should be an interesting experience. Since I actually hear TOO well (and don't see very well at all), it'll be different for me to deal with someone who can't hear.

I'm kinda excited. =) Even tho we haven't made a decision yet. ;) Hey, Kandice, are you still reading? Maybe you can teach her sign language. ;) (although the lack of opposable thumbs may be an issue.)

Love,
Crystal

For anybody interested in finding me, I'll be wandering around Gencon this evening, tomorrow evening, and all day Saturday and Sunday. If I'm not at th Smirk and Dagger booth feel free to text me. =D

Love,
Crystal

Sometimes, Crystal, expecting a straight answer from particular folks is absolutely out of the question.

And that alone should answer your question.

Wicked smart,
The Universe

Bloody brilliant.

Love,
Crystal

On "My Long-Ass Deconversion Story". I realize that it's my blog and I don't HAVE to explain myself, but I wanted to.

That story was just that, a story. It wasn't open for prostelytizing or criticism or accusations or petty insults. It wasn't written as an argument, and it got treated like one.

I DO still have all of the rest of the comments from the thread in question for anyone who was involved in it and might want to see them. I left the comments that weren't a part of it. I thank Stephen and Harley for your defense and Anon-troll and my brother Will for your points of view, correct or incorrect, whether I might disagree with them or not.

I thank everyone else who read and responded (and those who DIDN'T respond) for your respect and consideration and I appreciate your involvement in my life via this blog (again, whether you respond or not.)

For anyone who might have a problem with me deleting discussions you are welcome to your opinion, but I will warn you that my most likely response will be "tough cookies, it's my blog."

Sometimes, a story is just a story. You can either appreciate it or not bother with it.

Love,
Crystal

So I've mentioned that at my 2 week posting here at the hearing aid place, my boss is only here two days out of the week. He calls in regularly and I get little assignments now and then, but largley, I'm on my own up here. But, to be honest, I wouldn't mind at all if he were here.

I thought about it this morning as I was calling people to reschedule appointments. There was a file that I hunted and hunted and hunted for and just couldn't FIND. I called the other office to see if the doctor was there and if he might know where it was, but he'd already left to do some in home appointments. So I decided to hunt for his cell phone number.

And, in the search for his cell phone number, found the file I'd been looking for. On top of my desk. I completely forgot that I'd called the guy yesterday to let him know that his insurance came through.

Now, had I been back at Glenn's office, he'd have been disgusted, rolled his eyes, or even yelled. Karen would have done similar. Regardless of the fact that BOTH of them make the same kind of silly mistakes all of the time.

I was alone in the office today, but had the doctor been here? He'd have just laughed at me. Probably moreso when I told him that I'd lose my head if it weren't attached.

I don't know what my next posting is going to be like, but this one has been a nice reminder that there ARE good bosses out there.

And I am SO GLAD I don't work for that verbally abusive jerk anymore.

Love,
Crystal

I loved this article.

http://www.witchvox.com/va/dt_va.html?a=uspa&c=words&id=12770

Love,
Crystal

I'm still checking around the job-sites to see if anything looks good but, for now, I'm taking a break from the job hunt since I know I won't be available for a couple of months anyway. I'm going to call Nick today and make sure he's been able to check my references and try to get the official end-date for that position so that I know exactly what I'm going into and what I can plan ahead for. But it is SO NICE to know that I'm DEFINITELY going to be employed through the fall. It's only temp, but it's better than nothing.

On top of that, per got his loans in so HE'S feeling better, AND I get to help out at a booth at Gencon. So all in all, yes, things are definitely looking up. I feel good, and I kinda feel like I can relax a bit again.

I'm going to have to tighten my belt quite a bit to accomplish my financial goal for the next couple of months, or at least get close to it, but still, not being broke? Way better. ;) Getting to keep my apartment, being able to pay the bills... oh yeah. That's nice feelings. =) I was beginning to forget what money actually LOOKED like. ;)

On top of all of that, my current position is really cool. =) The doctor was in the office yesterday and he's a lot of fun. He gave me a couple of projects to finish up today so that I wouldn't be terribly bored, and then INSISTED on buying me a soda over at the gas station (he was going over to get himself one.) How nice is that? It is kindof a shame that this position only lasts a couple of weeks. Even if I could work here full-time, though, it's pretty far from home and I think gas would probably be a bitch. But, for now, it's pretty good stuff. =)

I have to remember to call my temp agencies and let them know that I'm not going to be available for a couple of months, but that I may need something after that. But who knows, maybe the Justice Agency will get its shit together by then and hire me. =) How cool would THAT be? =D

Thanks still for all your spells, prayers, and happy thoughts. =D

Love,
Crystal

http://community.livejournal.com/lolgods/

Awesome.

My favorite goddess gets her own stamp! take a look!

http://www.hellmail.co.uk/postalnews/templates/postal_global_news.asp?articleid=764&zoneid=11

Edit: I am well aware that the Venus of Willendorf isn't TECHNICALLY a goddess, as we don't necessarily know that she was even a religious symbol, but I like thinking of her as a goddess.

What Kind of Empath Are You?
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You scored as Healer

You are a Healer Empath. You take in the energy of others and transmute it. You trigger transformation in others and free trapped energy. You are capable of great healing abilities. You walk between the worlds and bring waves of healing energy with your presence. (from "The Book of Storms" by Jad Alexander at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Empaths/)

Healer

85%

Fallen Angel

85%

Judge

80%

Artist

75%

Shaman

75%

Universal

55%

Traveler

50%

Precog

40%

For those not in the know, Aerotek got me a 2 1/2 month temp position downtown.

It's a nice feeling, actually. Even though it's only 2 1/2 months, that's 2 1/2 months I don't have to worry about job-hunting, and I can save back some money. And I WILL be saving back money. I feel like that's the biggest mistake I made at my last job, not putting back money when I had the sense that I might end up getting fired, and I'm hoping not to repeat that. After paying off the bills for this month, that's the plan.

I'm hoping that either the Justice Agency gets things worked out or someone else comes up with something for me after the assignment is over, but it's nice to have more time. And it's nice to know that I'm going to be employed at least through the fall. Now I can kick back and enjoy my favorite season a bit!!! =D

Love,
Crystal

If it's bold, it's true.

Appearance:

I am 5'4 or shorter.
I think I'm ugly sometimes.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different colour.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses.
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.

Family/Home Life:

I've sworn at my parents.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I've lost a child.

Embarrassment:

I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public.

Health:

I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've had stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.

Traveling:

I've driven or ridden over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
I've been to France.

Experiences:

I've been lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone from the Internet in person.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a rooftop at night.
I've played chicken.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten sushi.
I've been snowboarding.

Relationships:

I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm available.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper. (nope, it's an EXACT TIE. How freaky is that?)
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've been divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality:

I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I've kissed a member of the same gender.
I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender.
I've had sex with someone of the same gender.
I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've had sex outdoors.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/Crime:

I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've been arrested.
I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol:

I've consumed alcohol.
I smoke cigarettes.
I smoke pot.
I regularly drink.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
I've done hard drugs.
I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
I take cough meds when I'm not sick.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem

Mental health:

I have been diagnosed with depression.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take anti-depressants.
I have an eating disorder.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
I've hurt myself on purpose.
I'm addicted to self harm.
I've woken up crying.

Death:

I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
I have attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.

Random:

I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others too easily.
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs.
I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
I curse regularly.
I sing in the shower.
I am a morning person.
I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar.
I am a sports fanatic.
I play with my hair.
I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat.
I love Spam.
I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
I bake well.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
I don't know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I laugh at my own jokes.(what? I'm funny!!!)
I eat fast food weekly.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I play video games.
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
My answers are totally honest.

PS-if you want to ask, feel free. ;)

If current legislation regarding alcohol pisses you off.

Hoosiers for Beverage Choices is a statewide, grassroots coalition of Indiana citizens that believe changes should be made to Indiana’s outdated alcoholic beverage laws. The goal of HBC is to update Indiana law to allow for the carry-out sale of alcoholic beverages on Sunday and the sale of cold beer at drug, grocery and convenience stores.

Click the link below to take part in this petition.:

http://www.votervoice.net/link/forward/arar68791.aspx

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