Having gone through the breaking down of my own faith and some of the shit that hit the fan along with it, I think that I can DEFINITELY understand why asking "why" is so terrifying for some people. Doubt is difficult, painful, and often very, very ugly. The prospect of leaving something that DEFINES you, that is the ground you stand on and that you count on the way that a lot of people count on religion, is perhaps one of the most painful and frightening ideas in the world. I still often have days when I don't know what to do with myself. My faith was my whole purpose in life, and now, step-by-step, I'm working to find other reasons and purposes. But having just the one, and having it be as simplistic as it was, was a LOT easier.
So I can't really blame people for not questioning their own faith. I can't even blame them for freaking out when someone ELSE questions their faith. What I CAN blame them for, however, is being assholes, shooting darts of blame and scorn, and taking their fears out on the person who is ALREADY facing the loneliness and insecurity of questioning their own faith. That, to me, is a fucking cop-out.
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Date: 2008-08-09 06:38 pm (UTC)So I can't really blame people for not questioning their own faith. I can't even blame them for freaking out when someone ELSE questions their faith. What I CAN blame them for, however, is being assholes, shooting darts of blame and scorn, and taking their fears out on the person who is ALREADY facing the loneliness and insecurity of questioning their own faith. That, to me, is a fucking cop-out.